"I think that if God forgives us we must forgive ourselves. Otherwise, it is almost like setting up ourselves as a higher tribunal than Him." - C.S. Lewis
God is not mad at you
5 things God wants you to bring to Him. (1) Your doubts. (2) Your pain. (3) Your fears. (4) Your sinful thoughts. (5) Your heart. (6) He won't reject you. He'll embrace you and heal you.
Your past has been erased.